12 weeks

Today we saw you for the very first time.
“Oh my God!” I exclaimed as you jumped into view.
No idea why I was so surprised to see you in there, moving and wriggling about.
Your hand goes to your face, as if you’re embarrassed, as if we’ve invaded your privacy by peeking into the intimate sanctuary of your hiding place.
The sonographer shows us your arms, your legs, your hands, your brain. We see each delicate part through your translucent skin.
There’s no hiding now, no pretence.
You are there and you are growing and you are ours. You are made of us, but you are separate from us. You already have your own life, your own destiny stretching out ahead of you.
I can try to keep you safe within me, shielded from the outside world. But in no time at all, you will escape my fort, be outside the barricades that currently protect you.
Oh little one, what a life you will lead. A life full of love, affection and trouble.

For now, stay with me, stay within the confines of my body and garner the strength you need for life out here. For it is tough, and it is tiring, and it is dark and scary. But we love you, and the One who created you loves you. With invisible shields, you can face life’s battles and with an army of angels, you can walk in the light.
But for now, stay here with me, sleep deep within me. Your time will come, but for now, stay.

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