All of my darkest fears and anxieties have surfaced

I am suddenly questioning whether I want a baby at all

Mourning the loss of it being just Sam and I.

So I breathe, I pray, I visualise positive things and remind myself that of course I want a baby. I always have wanted to be a mummy and that day is closing in.

We are expanding our family and everyone is so excited and happy for us.

We are not in this on our own. We have God, we have our friends/framily and our families.

We have people who want the best for us surrounding us and they hold us up in their prayers.

We have arms already itching to hold our little boy.

My arms will no longer be empty.

I can’t wait to see Sam be a dad and to fall even more in love with him.

We are in this together and our boy is going to bring us so much joy.

Caleb Dinsmore, it’s nearly your time.